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Geezer Gamer Visits Galaxy’s Edge
So I have continued down the Geezer Gamer path and this site will probably be ending soon. In the meantime, here is my latest video, a review of Star Wars Galaxy’s Edge. Please check it out and subscribe so you can keep up with me there. Other places to find me once this goes dark are the following:
Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/thegeezergamer.com
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@GreyhawkTheGeezerGamer
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thegeezergamer/
Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/greyhawkthegeezergamer
I want to thank everyone who has ever come to this blog for anything. I appreciate what you allowed me to do earlier in my career. This blog helped me get writing gigs, other jobs, and an insane amount of life long friendships. It wouldn’t have happened without the readers. I know there are so many less nowadays as our communities have gone their separate ways, but I hope to see you again on the other side. Be well!
What I’ve been up to…
Never too late to be who you really are...
Hello all, not sure how long the blog will continue to exist in this form. I’ve started the new venture ‘The Geezer Gamer’ and you can find me streaming on Twitch and YouTube and posting videos over on YouTube as well. Hope some of you that are still connected to my RSS feed will come by and take a look. As they say, LIKE AND SUBSCRIBE 🙂
Three Decades
Here's to 30 more...
This past week, my wife and I celebrated a significant milestone. We passed our 30 year wedding anniversary.
We’ve been together for over three decades, and I wouldn’t change a thing.
Now we both agree that 26 of those years were great, while 4 of them weren’t so fantastic. Our first two years were rough, and then we feel the pandemic kinda robbed us of two more years. But hey, 87% is an A- in our book, and we’ll take it.
Now why wouldn’t I change anything if four of the years kinda sucked? Well, those years made us who we are. We learned to fight through adversity and to really have each other’s back. We learned how to communicate, and how to work through disagreements, and how to be there for each other when things were truly grim.
However much those four years strained things, they helped build us into something stronger. They built us into what we have now, which I dearly love.
There is no other person in this universe that I would rather sit on the deck having coffee with, or share a meal with at a busy Vegas cafe, or complain about the state of the world with as we watch our favorite talking heads.
Thank you Jen, for being my human and for putting up with my shit. I can’t imagine where life would be without you. Let’s make the next 30 even more memorable. Love you always.
Favorite Music of 2024
A Fantastic Year for Music
As you know, I am a music junkie, and have been my whole life. Each year I like to listen to as much new stuff as possible and come up with a list of my favorites. You will find that list below. Bring Me The Horizon killed it as usual, and after Jordan Fish left the band, he helped produce an EP for House of Protection. HoP are two former members of Fever 333, and I LOVE what they put out. In fact, I was one of the top 1000 listeners to them on Apple Music.
There were great new albums by Sueco, Alkaline Trio, the aforementioned Fever 333 and more. Neck Deep put out one of the absolute best pop/punk albums I’ve heard in years, and then I found BILMURI for the first time. Now, Bilmuri is considered kind of a mix of emo, hardcore and country, with some awesome saxophone thrown in. It’s weird as hell, and his videos are even weirder, but I played it more than anything else this year.
Groups such as Better Than Ezra and X Ambassadors put out really great albums as well, but the biggest revival was Linkin Park, who released their album From Zero. I love the new vocalist Emily Armstrong, and the album was very strong. I was very happy to have them back.
There are more good albums on the horizon for 2025, and dark times make great music. So I imagine we’ll have some albums of a lifetime coming out soon 🙂
- Bring Me The Horizon – POST HUMAN:NeX GEn
- Sueco – Attempted Lover
- BILMURI – American Motor Sports
- Linkin Park – From Zero
- Alkaline Trio – Blood, Hair, And Eyeballs
- Neck Deep – Neck Deep
- The Used – MEDZ
- The Cure – Songs of a Lost World
- Stand Atlantic – WAS HERE
- Your Broken Hero – The End?
- Better Than Ezra – Super Magick
- X Ambassadors – Townie
- Sum 41 – Heaven x Hell
- Yours Truly – Toxic
- Fever 333 – Darker White
- House of Protection – GALORE -EP
- State Champs – State Champs
Honorable Mention – Judas Priest, Ninja Sex Party, Maggie Lindemann, Nothing Nowhere, Green Day, Mick Mars, Anberlin, Jack White
Glad The Blog is Still Here
Your dark’s too vivid, the light’s not there
My last post went up Dec. 10th but I had written it immediately after the election. The problem was, when I went to post it, I found that my website had been infected with malware. The infection took out several of my personal sites as well as one of my friend’s business sites which I maintain for him. So everything went dark for a bit.
It took several weeks of back and forth with my hosting provider (whom I’ve been with for over two decades) as well as some paid professional services to get everything cleaned up. Due to how things got infected and cleaned, my provider couldn’t figure out how the malware/hackers got in. It took quite a bit to get things all sorted, and the infection popped up a couple more times before we finally seemed to have it under control.
During that downtime, I faced the realization that I might lose two decades of posts here. Part of it was fairly liberating to be honest. But the other, more nagging part, was that I was going to miss all of that history. In addition, I would miss writing here, especially during the next four years.
No, I don’t plan on writing a bunch of political stuff (although it may happen from time to time) but rather I want to lean into art. I restarted my Flickr account, and have started to post on Bluesky. I plan on focusing quite a bit on photography, videography and other creative endeavors.
I have to admit this is all me trying to distract myself from the abject horrors that are sure to surface under the new regime. The last term almost broke me, so I’m going to go to try to insulate myself a bit better this time. Art, writing, and learning new technology will fuel me. I hope you can find the things you need to help you as well. Be kind to each other.
And today’s title is from Two Faced by Linkin Park, one of my albums of the year. My music post will get here soon but the line “your dark’s too vivid, the light’s not there” was a really powerful turn of phrase for me. Vivid darkness is a kick ass concept. Thanks LP.
…time to find out
Stages of Grief - Acceptance
During this recent election, America showed me what it truly is. I had hoped that the first term was an abomination, but no, this really IS America. The electorate made this choice knowing what it was getting. I have to accept that, yet it makes me sad.
You can call me a snowflake with my woke tendencies, but I think everyone deserves to live their life their own way. As long as you aren’t hurting anyone else, its no one else’s business how you live. Live and let live. Treat others the way you want to be treated.
But that’s not what you see from the president elect.
- You see homophobia.
- You see transphobia.
- You see racism.
- You see xenophobia.
- You see sexism.
- You see narcissism.
- You see hate.
No matter whether he was speaking on the evils of windmills, getting his black people mixed up, talking about mass deportations, extolling the virtues of fictional serial killers, or giving his microphone a happy ending, it was all laced with elements of the above.
I cannot help but think of a lyric from Calypso on the song The Exorcist:
“Love thy neighbor, right?
Or is it only if they’re
Rich, able-bodied, cis, hetero and white?”
A red voter this year might say that they themselves show none of those horrible character flaws. Maybe. Maybe that IS the case, but even if that is somehow true, you’ve proven that those hateful things are not deal breakers for you. You can look the other way because your team wins.
That doesn’t mean you are a good person. That means you are an accomplice. You are still hurting others.
34 felonies? No biggie. Banging a porn star while his current wife is pregnant? He’s a true Christian. Being an actual sexual assaulter who bragged about grabbing women by the pussy? Well, he didn’t assault MY daughter.
Ask any woman you know who has been assaulted, and they’ll tell you how horrible this decision by America feels. It’s just one of many that have been actively hostile towards women recently.
You chose the felon over the actual prosecutor who put bad people in jail. You want to support the police, yet you put the actual criminal in office. Somehow, this is all fine to you. Somehow, you justify it in your mind. Somehow, most police ALSO wanted the felon (unless of course they worked at the Capitol.)
The cognitive dissonance that goes on here is on a level I cannot comprehend. I don’t know how so many people, whom he wouldn’t piss on if they were on fire, worship him. It will never make sense.
I guess it’s time to see what everyone voted for.
The Death of Reality
When Eyes Wide Open Means Eyes Wide Shut
Remember the good old days when a photograph was a reliable capture of reality? You’d snap a picture, and there it was—a genuine representation of that moment in time. Fast forward to today, and it’s a whole different ballgame. Thanks to the wonders of digital manipulation, it’s getting harder and harder to trust that what we’re seeing is anywhere close to the truth.
Take Google’s feature that ensures no one’s eyes are shut in photos, for example. Sounds like a lifesaver, right? No more pictures ruined by that one person blinking at the wrong time. But here’s the kicker: the photo you end up with isn’t actually real. It’s a composite image, pieced together from various frames to create an “ideal” moment that never actually happened.
Now, don’t get me wrong—I appreciate not having to sift through dozens of shots to find one where everyone’s eyes are open. But at the same time, it’s a bit disconcerting to think that this “perfect” photo is, in reality, a fabrication. We’re no longer capturing moments as they are; we’re creating an illusion of perfection.
And it’s not just Google. Everywhere you look, digital manipulation is creeping into our photos and videos. From filters that smooth our skin and whiten our teeth to apps that can swap out backgrounds and even change our facial expressions, the line between what’s real and what’s fake is becoming increasingly blurred.
These edits shape our memories in ways we might not even realize. We look back at photos from a vacation and see sun-drenched beaches and smiling faces, but the truth might be that it rained the whole time and the kids were grumpy. Over time, the edited photos become our memories, replacing the less-than-perfect reality with a curated version of events.
It’s a weird time for digital photography, no doubt about it. On one hand, we have more control than ever over how we present ourselves and our lives to the world. On the other hand, we’re losing touch with authenticity. We’re creating a version of reality that’s more like a glossy magazine spread than a true reflection of our experiences.
So, where does that leave us? Are we witnessing the death of reality in photography? It’s hard to say. But one thing’s for sure: the next time you see a flawless photo or video, take it with a grain of salt. Because in this age of digital manipulation, what you see is rarely what you get.
In the end, maybe it’s not all bad. Maybe these edited photos can help us see the world—and ourselves—in a more positive light. But let’s not forget to appreciate the unedited, imperfect moments, too. After all, sometimes the most genuine moments are the ones where someone’s eyes are shut.
Lastly, I want to point out that everything before this paragraph was generated and written by AI. I told AI to adopt a persona of myself based on this blog, and prompted it to write this out with some themes and points that I had, and quite frankly, it did a damn good job. I left it fully unedited. My point for this whole exercise was that from now on, you will never be able to tell if any photo or video was reality at the time. It most certainly was not, and we will gaslight ourselves into thinking it was. I’m not quite sure how I feel about it yet. I’ll keep playing around and let you know.
Park Avenue leads to Skid Row
We are the Youth (?) Gone Wild
Once again, it’s been a bit. Not sure if I can still call this a blog if I’m only posting a couple of times a year. But hey, I felt like writing, so here we are.
It’s been a good year so far. Went on my first cruise and loved it, had a nice Vegas trip, made it to a quick family reunion, and also got to see a pretty amazing concert.
One of my longtime favorite bands is Skid Row. Recently their lead singer had to quit the band due to his health. The band had four dates booked that they had to fulfill, so they needed someone to fill in on lead vocals. I don’t think they could have found anyone better for the role than one Lzzy Hale of Halestorm.
It was at a ballroom in a small casino in Riverside, Iowa. I made the trip with a couple of my good friends and got to enjoy one hell of a concert. If you want to see how insane Lzzy is, and how good she sounds as the voice of Skid Row, check out one of my favorite Skid Row songs of all time, Quicksand Jesus.
After the pandemic, I had convinced myself that I didn’t need to see live music. I was wrong.
Speaking of the pandemic, after that Vegas trip, we caught COVID for the second time. It was worse this time around and it was a pretty miserable couple of weeks isolating. Hopefully this means I am good for awhile.
As for here, I have some ideas of things I want to discuss. I look forward to getting the creative juices flowing again. For now, I’ll just get back to listening to the new Bring Me The Horizon album non-stop. You should probably do that too.
Best Music of 2023
Some uplifting music this year even!
This year wasn’t nearly as depressing and angry on the music front as last
year, and there was some amazing stuff in rotation. It was definitely a great music year. Special emphasis on Beartooth for being a positive force, Sleep Token for pushing genres, Pierce the Veil for being the perfect album when I needed it, Hoodie Allen with one of the best breakup albums of all time, and Bad Omens, who technically came out at the tail end of 2022, but I’ve listened to them nearly nonstop since I found them. Such a great album. To hear songs from everyone below (including the honorable mentions) you can check it out on Apple Music here.
- Sleep Token – Take Me Back to Eden
- Bad Omens – The Death of Peace of Mind
- Piece The Veil – The Jaws of Life
- The Used – Toxic Positivity
- ILLENIUM – ILLENIUM
- Waterparks – INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY
- Hoodie Allen – Bub
- All Time Low – Tell Me I’m Alive
- Beartooth – The Surface
- Story of the Year – Tear Me to Pieces
- Nine Days – Slow Motion Life, Pt. 1
- The Menzingers – Some of it Was True
- Taking Back Sunday – 152
- Thirty Seconds to Mars – It’s The End Of The World But It’s A Beautiful Day
- Lil Lotus – Nosebleeder
Honorable mentions: NF, Therapy?, Fall Out Boy. Depeche Mode, Skrillex, Paramore, MOD SUN, Extreme, Jason Mraz, grandson, K.Flay, Ren